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Thursday, January 5, 2012

Right Now

I uploaded these photos yesterday, got no further and have no idea where I was going with them. I am having some difficulty getting back into my blogging groove and my homeschooling groove and getting up before the kids and... my groove, in general. The holiday break has really thrown me off. But if I'm to be totally honest I think I'm really just in a slump. I'm feeling kind of negative and dissatisfied.
Just right upfront, it's not my marriage, it's not my children or homeschooling and not my work. It's just me, things and people I've allowed into my life, my own attitude and things I hold onto. I really don't feel up to just spelling it all out here but I guess I could sum it up just saying that I need a new outlook, a new attitude and I think I just need to clean house a bit, emotionally and relationship speaking. I actually have put off making any New Year's resolutions simply because I feel overwhelmed , a little, by all the areas of my life I'd like to see change in. It's a little scary to think of all the dissatisfaction piled up on paper like that. But I should. I can't change things if I won't face them.
That's just where I am right now. I wish I had something cheerier to share with you. But maybe you're not feeling 100% OK with everything in your life right now either. And maybe it's nice to know you're not alone there. I know I feel that way often. Either way, peace, friends, and goodnight.

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Tiffany · 698 weeks ago

I ended up here by such a random path ...but now i think by synchronicity. I, too, am feeling where you are. I have three children and homeschool using Waldorf curriculum and one little one on the way and right now I feel a little suffocated, and less than inspired about things. It is so nice to know, that you can live in those times, knowing the answer will come, the healing will start, the clearing of the stuff we need to deal with will happen but for now, we are where we are and there is such beauty resting in truth and sharing your truth with others.____Yes, for me, it was good to find you here, feeling some of the things i am...perfect strangers but all sharing the same human condition. I wish you love and light on your journey, that the clouds part steadily and that you are gentle with yourself (good reminder for me here too!) as you find your way back to steadiness and peace.____Tiffany

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thiscosylife 81p · 695 weeks ago

Oh, thank you so much for sharing, Tiffany. It means so much indeed, to know you are not alone in feeling what you're feeling. I think I am beginning to find some of the answers I am looking for, the light for my path. I do hope you are, too.

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eidolons · 698 weeks ago

Biggest of internet hugs to you, Julie! I know exactly how you feel. I cycle through feeling dissatisfied at least once a year. That's when I know it's time to slow down and clean house, internally speaking. It's time to get rid of the things that are holding you back and pushing you down. Here's to a sparkling Spring on the horizon for you.

And that rabbit! Ooooooh! You're just making the most adorable animals these days! I'm totally floored. Once my husband's promotion goes through (this is me crossing all the fingers and toes that I can), I'm going to have to snatch up a fox, squirrel, and rabbit from you. (:

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Lenka · 698 weeks ago

Thanks for posting! I completely understand. Here's hoping for inspiration to find all of us soon :)

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lori · 698 weeks ago

your brave and wise julie dear. it is okay to feel all these things. i think the unsteady times are when growth happens. i hope you'll be especially gentle with yourself and maybe you took these photos to remind how wonderfully creative you are. i love all your little knitted toys (and everything you make.)

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Star · 698 weeks ago

I think life is hard, it changes all the time and it is hard keeping up with it, just when I feel comfy, found my pace it evolves on me and I'm left wondering what to do now... slowing down helps, getting out also helps... Lots of love

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thiscosylife 81p · 695 weeks ago

Ah, you are so very right indeed. Perhaps it's just that resist to change that makes it so hard. Hope you have a wonderful week!

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Julie · 698 weeks ago

I practiced yoga yesterday and at one point the instructor was leading through a breathing exercise, and she was focusing on letting things out so you can make space for new things. I thought she was talking about about air, but then I realized she was guiding us (me) on an emotional journey, too. Let go of the old attitudes or practices or "things" that are not working for you so you have room for the things you love, such as friends and smiling and happiness. Another day, this made have blown right over me but yesterday it started to sink in, that I should let go of unhealthy opinions because really, those things don't matter in my life, I need to instead direct my energy toward people and ideas that fulfill me and literally, fill me. I have bumped into your blog here and there and each time, it's a source of gentleness to see how you nurture your creativity and family. Peace.

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thiscosylife 81p · 695 weeks ago

Hello Julie. Thank you so much for stopping by and sharing. Your words really meant alot. I actually read this a couple of wks ago when you stopped in and forgot to come back and reply. So I am just finding your words again and so grateful for that, Letting go is always so hard but so very needed, and I think very much what I need right now. Also, what you said about old attitudes and unhealthy opinions.... very much where I am, so thank you.

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Joy · 698 weeks ago

Good luck finding your groove again in this new year. I love the little peg bunny! I imagine he's wonderful for participating in Peter Rabbit's tales. Big hugs!

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Andrea from ziezo · 697 weeks ago

Thanks for sharing! You are not the only one out there. . . I have been there, it's important to find a suitable way out. Seems like your yoga session has given you a start. I find it is also a cycle that we have to get through and come out again refreshed and ready to take it all on again.
Lovely rabbit!

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Huggermugger · 697 weeks ago

I've been doing some reevaluation myself lately. I want to get myself a new ring that says something about "peace" on it, to remind myself of John 14:27 -- I need to remember to reflect Christ's peace in my life and household. I thought a physical reminder might be helpful in these distracted days...

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thiscosylife 81p · 695 weeks ago

I agree, I was actually thinking the same thing. I was thinking I would make a needle felted piece to hang and just remind me of where I want to be. Visual reminders are just helpful sometimes.

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melanie · 697 weeks ago

I know you have already posted new and cheerier blog entries but I just wanted to say that I too am feeling like this these days - I think many of us are. It is always nice to know you are not alone. :)

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thiscosylife 81p · 695 weeks ago

Hi, Melanie. It absolutely is. And I think it's important that we share it on occasion... to remind ourselves that we are not an island and to show one another that it is OK to be down or dissatisfied or whatever it is, we do all get that way from time to time. I am working through many things right now and finding peace in some. I hope you are as well. Hugs to you and thank you for stopping in and sharing with me.

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